I really did decide 3½ years ago to stop watching news and reading news online because they caused me pain, I’ve always been an empath so watching anyone in pain isn’t what I want to do on my free time. At that time I also stopped on of my other mind numbing activity which was to care a rat’s ass about celebrities, who did what, who got together, who broke up, who designed what, and so on…

Now it was truly a life changing decision – I quit my old job few months later feeling more empowered.  Got a new job. It was perhaps a year or close to two after that that I first tried to stop watching TV, except for documentaries on nature, space and religion which I found informative. It lasted about a year, and then the beginning of this year when I was feeling the spring blue for two months I started watching TV again, this time online.

I have been on that slip ever sense, but I think it’s time again to wean myself off TV. I’ve noticed how when I come back from work my mind is still active but just 30 minutes of watching TV on my computer and I feel sluggish, drained and tired. I feel as if work has tired me so completely but perhaps it’s wise to look at TV as a reason – so I will experiment!

I will spend a week wholly without TV – oh wait, this sort of can’t be very accurate experiment as I stop working in two days. 🙂 Oh well, I am still stopping TV staring again, no more Doctor Who, How I Met Your Mother, Mentalist and Movies. This should actually be fairly easy break as my week is as follows:
Wednesday = Work
Thursday = Work
Friday = Off to go camping
Saturday = Camping
Sunday = Camping
Monday = Camping
Tuesday = Finishing up camping
After tomorrow I don’t even have access to a TV, as TV is not a part of Camping, so this should be fairly easy break from IT, that just need to uphold.

Now for computer TV watching, I will still watch spiritually meaningful youtube videos, I think that’s produced with more consciousness and meaning well, other than TV that has quite a bit of bad rap under its carpet.

You might have also noticed I said I’m going camping for Midsummer! I am!
I do not know if me taking the change to not go camping because of thunder storms so well the thunderstorm warning been lifted off Satakunta and we decided to go camping again. Which I am so happy about!
Talk about that Change in my week’s beginning Tarot. 😉

Just 2 more days of work and I get to go camping in nature and so begins my 5 Week Summer Vacation! Hooray! 🙂

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All this talk about monetary or financial abundance in spirituality is really bothering me. I do not for a second believe that if all the people in the world manifested monetary abundance we could even survive.

Money is an illusion. Think of credit, a loan, card you pay with, imaginary money on your bank account. The only real money is the cash in your hand and even that is so corrupt there are no words for it. There are people who decide how much your cash is worth at any given time, or how much your gold or silver is worth. But gold and silver are more consistent of the three options.

This is what rubs me the wrong way about The Secret is their money, cars, jewelry approach.  They make a good point of taking responsibility of your life but imagining a car believing you have it, won’t do it.

Do not get me wrong I believe in the Law of Attraction very much, just not the attachment filled The Secret.

Law of Attraction is attracting with your thoughts experiences to your life.

Like one day I had to go to a meeting at work in the evening, I spend two hours prior thinking I don’t want to go, I’m tired, gosh why do I have to go? So by the time I’m standing solidly on the bus stop waiting for my ride to work, two busses miss their shift – which leads to me running to catch a metro and being late from the meeting.
What did I attract there – apparently no transportation, it is as if the Universe was right by my side in the metro looking at me and saying: “But I though you didn’t want to go, I just gave you what you wanted?”

Another time I was setting a dentist appointment on the phone without my work calendar, and we set a date for mid May, a Wednesday. Few days after the call I checked the work calendar to find out I had set the appointment for the morning of Spring Celebration day, a morning where we and the kids would put on a show for the parents for the end of the Spring  semester.  I had to change the dentist appointment then, I tried to call them twice not getting through. In my mind I kept repeating I have to change the dentist appointment, I have to change the dentist appointment.  Universe heard me loud and clear and had the dentist  office call me the next day telling me they had to close for Wednesday because of staff training and would I be free the next day, on Thursday.  I couldn’t help but to smile when I said, yes.

Yet another example, and I’ll keep this short, was when our sofa was at a breaking point and I kept thinking we need a new sofa, we need a new sofa – what did the amazing Universe do, well through my mom and her boyfriend gave us a 300€ gift card to a furniture store.

Another short one, as we were remodeling, having super hard time with getting off wallpaper, I kept asking come off easy, come off easy – modifying my technique a little it did come off as easy as magic.

Now you will never caught me cheating, I will never wish for 100,000€s for Abundance, or sports car for the fun and cool of it, or jewelry for the sparkliness of it. That people is Vanity.

Now is Vanity part of Enlightenment?
Is it part of Love?
Is Vanity part of Light, perhaps?
Oh – no? Well then we will agree. if we disagree then ask yourself this if you are perfect and already have everything you need, if you are perfectly safe as you are then why do you need possessions? Extra Money?  Extra Vacation?  Extra Clothes?  Extra Jewelry? How will that better your light-filled essence who is on its way to Non-Attachment, Love and Compassion?

We can agree or disagree, as all paths eventually lead to same Unity. 🙂
Here is another view on abundance, letting go and money.

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Where last entry was all about bringing out thoughts in whatever form they wanted to come out in, this entry is all about a plan. A plan to heal my Body and Mind.

I have meditated whenever I feel so, spontaneously, which I admit is ( I am afraid to use the word ) rarely ( but there I said it, after all yesterday was Lunar Eclipse and that is all about letting go of un-necessary fear ). And now that I have said it I wish to change it, and not just meditation, but Reiki and Visualization.

I had this idea yesterday morning as I was on the metro to go to work, I want to establish a loose routine to do a little bit every day. To come up with a spiritual Life, not just daily routines of go to work, routines at work, come home and have spirituality time. 😉

Monday = Tarot Reading for the Upcoming Week, to have insight on what are the points for the week to focus and learn from…

Tuesday = Reiki, wither to balance chakras or specifically heal what I feel intuitively is in need of balancing and healing…

Wednesday = Meditation, for relaxation, quieting the mind and connecting with silence and the void, the part of me that is consciousness…

Thursday = Visualization, healthy body, mind, astral travel, learning lessons…

Friday = Channeling, connecting with my Higher Self or my Spirit Guides to better my life…

Saturday = Yoga Trance Dance, invigorating the body, connecting with movement…

Sunday = Meditation, for relaxation, quieting the mind and connecting with silence and the void, the part of me that is consciousness…

Of course I am still allowing full access to spontaneous action, to do whatever I wish, whenever I wish with full consideration of Actions and Consequences. We should never do something or leave something undone if we can’t take responsibility for what happens because of our actions or non-actions.

Love, Light and Joy!

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Apple pie is in the oven, windchimes are singing in the kitchen, balcony is full of brightly colored flowers, I should attempt to make Greek Salad but I seem to have trouble keeping my eyes open. This ehec-virus is the solution to the swine flu pandemic bombing at the box office, hydration is the key. Is +30’C too much for Finland, we live in the North we can’t handle heats like this, two years of the same first super cold heavy snowed winters followed by heatwave summers two in a row of those maybe it has something to do with the activity of then sun, global warming, highten seasons, change.
I joined Plan Finland today, became a volunteer, will be teaching english to Plan ambassadors, will be translating and interpreting, will be teaching how to act around children, it’s part of my purpose, my life long purpose as a kindergarden teacher, and humanbeing to help children, to raise better children who have opportunities they didn’t even knew they were entitled to as humans. Will get a t-shirt as well ‘because i’m a girl’ campaign.

Just needed to get some thoughts out. 🙂

Love, Light and Joy!

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In The Key to Evolving Beyond Ego, Craig explains why our spiritual practices rarely lead to the kind of transformation we’re seeking: the simple truth is that most of us haven’t yet learned how to navigate past the part of us that doesn’t actually want to change.

As Craig explains in this audio, this fundamental resistance to change is not our fault. We didn’t choose it. It’s not even a product of our childhood traumas.

This primitive part of the self–the ego–is rooted deep in our evolutionary past and is hardwired to preserve a sense of security and continuity at all costs.

Try asking it to change and you’re going to get a big “no” for an answer. So, although we may think we want to evolve, and may be putting a lot of time and effort into our spiritual path, if we don’t learn how to identify–and move beyond–this fundamental resistance to change, we will find that our efforts to awaken repeatedly fall short of the transformation we all sense is possible.

In this audio, Craig illuminates the most important step you can take to begin to identify your own ego resistance, and more importantly, how to make the simple but radical shift in orientation that can enable you to move beyond it.

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Love, Light and Joy!

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As there was a great Coronal Mass Ejection from the Sun three days ago, I thought I’d post my experiences from yesterday, as yesterday should have been the peak day of the “download”.
Why do I say download? There are many people, but in grand scale few, who study the sun and its solar maximum and minimum cycles and see what historical events correlate with those. Some men have come to believe ( perhaps you’ll find their names here ) that when the Sun releases particles during CME and flares that effect our body, changing the so called settings in us.

Cosmic rays are high-energy particles from deep space; they penetrate metal, plastic, flesh and bone. Astronauts exposed to cosmic rays develop an increased risk of cancer, cataracts and other maladies. Ironically, solar explosions, which produce their own deadly radiation, sweep away the even deadlier cosmic rays. As flares subside, cosmic rays intensify – yin, yang. ~

But also:

But there is scientific evidence that the increase in the solar activity could give a significant boost to human consciousness and to spiritual evolution. It could open the door to a new era, argue some scientists.
This is because we, human beings, constantly generate electromagnetic fields around us depending on the thoughts and feelings we have. And these fields in turn, are constantly interacting with many other electric and magnetic fields on the planet earth, in the solar system and in universe. In as far as solar activity impacts on electric and magnetic fields that affect us every day, the sun interacts directly with our DNA and stimulates changes in biosynthesis in cells. ~

So let’s move on to yesterday, Monday.

Yesterday was the day that the effects of the Saturday’s CME (coronal mass ejection) we felt in the electromagnetic field of earth, and us, the people. Of course thanks to our planet’s magnetic field we never get the full blast of the update but share it planet earth.

On Sunday I had a wonderful day of realizing that my ego was on my spiritual path with me, blocking me subtly from enjoying the Light with trying to educating myself on the information of spirituality. ( the entry HERE )
What I decided on Sunday was to make Monday a Day of Light – not just Monday but the rest of my life. The things was I was worried of what work would be when my focus was Light, decided I won’t worry about it as I had intuitive knowledge it would be absolutely perfect for my work, but still my ego was trying to worry me with image of me having to quit my job to enjoy the Light. Well– it just happens Monday was 1-0 for Niina. 😉

I woke up, lying in bed I opened my eyes and chose that today was going to be light filled, the most blissful, happiest day where I give the universe the open field to manifest through me. On a side note I said the same thing this morning. My day that followed was amazing, the most calm, serene, happy one – usually I am at least twice or thrice stressed when the children at work get into arguments and screaming – it seemed my attitude was rubbing off on them.

I noticed how I was fully present in all the actions I did, with the child I was with. It seemed a fully different experience from last week. I do not know how much of this has to do with the CME but I am not so proud to say I give it no credit of Sunday and Monday and the change at the core of me.

The Universe, it’s planets and stars are more mysterious than we give them credit for – just because we can see them and guess upon them doesn’t mean all is known and understood about them, ask that of any scientist and they’ll agree. This existence of ours… much more amazing than meets the 15% usage capability of our brain.

What happened to you on Sunday-Monday?

Love, Light and Joy!

(original entry at my blog @ )

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I am starting to feel something that could develop into frustration if I let it – it’s due to the fact that I am still searching new ways to evolve spiritually, but what I find in the world now is something I’ve already dealt with, released and moved on.

Just this morning few moments ago I received a free small course on releasing mind to reach my goals and dreams. Which is fine, except I am past earthy goals and dreams such as being successful or rich or living in the Bahamas.

I am fully content with the state of my life, I do not need or want anything external or internal to change. Not any of my emotions, they all precious and tools for great self-knowledge which is part of our existence on this planet.

I am aware of the illusion of material life, I am aware of how much I need of material things to keep the body alive – all else, I do not need. I have no desire to be successful. Would someone please give even a semi-reasonable spiritual reason why we should have more than we need or more than another sister or brother of ours?

I do not feel comfortable with “goals” anymore – if I need something I take the necessary steps to acquire it, and if it is meant to be it is what I shall receive because it truly was needed. I have come to figure out that things I do not need I will not receive – I think this has been a theme to learn in this life time, along with what comes with that Lesson which is: Total freedom of Attachments of all things material. But it leaks into emotional life as well and I cannot say there are too many things I am attached to.

Not being Attached I’d like to share doesn’t mean you cannot feel sad when you two depart from each other.

As I write this I’m reminded of a recent article I read, “Ego Valaistumista Etsimässä” ( Ego Searching for Enlightenment ) in which the writer explores how the Ego wants to set out to find Enlightenment because it is one of those things it can be superior in than other people ( clever Ego, right ), so it sets out to get the perfect religion which it dictates is the one right religion, of course it is quite afraid of dying so eventually it gives and start to try and find reincarnation. After Ego is researched on this spiritual road it gets a guru, it sits under the feet of him and demands the Highest teachings from him. The ego loves to get the most exotic guru, because he can boast with it and beat other searchers of truth. After this Ego searches for knowledge on spiritual journeys and evolution, coming in contact with choices which separate him from others so that he can feel a bit more right than others again. When Ego comes across master of Light he wants to be one, and charges to the path but realizes soon that this would mean letting go of all kind of baggage. This Light is in front of it now and the Ego fears it, but as Light has entered the Ego cannot undo his actions and tries to focus on tidbits of knowledge instead of the Light of the Soul and divinity. But Ego soon sees there is not enough of organized information and hence it gets happy cause there are life times of information to go through and organize.

That is putting a very long article very shortly here, I recommend you get the newest Minä Olen, the article is there on pages 32-35. I wish it was in english as well as it is Amazing.

So why am I looking for more knowledge when all that I see is pretty much useless to me? Should I keep on looking for information, new ideas, and old ideas to evolve – or focus on the Light?

The Light is my life, it is in my Heart and Mind, in my Consciousness, it is in my sense of humor, and it is in the eyes of everyone I meet. So why am I hesitant to give my whole life to it – I have to work, it seems a contradiction. What if giving myself to the light fully means… But it won’t, I know it won’t. Silly Ego.

I can see it front of my eyes – that life, it’s as easy as breathing, why would I not want to have that light in my life?

That said I am off to meditate!

Love, Light and Joy!

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